future former fatties
Dec 10, 2014 at 12:50 PM

Diary of a Future Former Fatty 1

By Linda Misleh Wagner

Dear Diary of a Future Former Fatty,

I have been trying for weeks to lose weight and failing miserably. I keep jumping from one diet to another, and by the end of most days, I promise to start over tomorrow and stick to one diet.

I figured out that part of my problem is that I don’t want to give up on all the foods I love. Aaron Snyder’s program says just give up a little bit at a time over time until you are ready to give up a little more. The weight will come off slowly, but it will come off. He’s right. For me, I am not giving up that little bit of anything long enough to get weight off, but just enough to not keep gaining weight.

I was sitting at my desk last week discussing my disgust with myself with my co-worker, who also would like to lose some weight. We decided to make a pact and start our diet the day after Labor Day, which is today. We agreed to be sensible and make changes little by little but reasonably more aggressive than we had been. We would support each other through this and be accountable to each other.

Two weeks ago, I had lost some weight trying to drop just one pound a week. In these last two weeks, I thought I was eating so much better. I made a huge slow-cooker pot of chicken in a tomato and garlic and onion sauce. No oils or fats. No sugar or white flour. I ate well. There were a few days in between when I gave into my sweet tooth pretty badly, but for the most part, I thought I was on the road to weight loss.

I was so wrong. I gained ten pounds back including the four pounds I had lost. That weight gain is what initially sparked the conversation between my coworker and me. I was eating too much of even healthier foods and cheating too much on junk foods.

No more! Nooooo more!!!!! This is not the life I want to live. I want to feel great in my body. I don’t need perfection, but I need health and freedom to do the things in life that matter to me, unhindered by my big fat ass and huge belly. Nooooo more!

Today, I started my plan. My health strategy would be to basically count calories, journal what I am taking in, and if it was an appropriate time to eat. Plus, why was I eating? Is it true hunger, or is it old habits, or is it out of some emotional frustration?

Future former fatty, I want you to know, at some point, I will be signing off as Former Fatty.

Until we meet again, this is Linda Misleh Wagner, future former fatty.

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