future former fatties
Dec 10, 2014 at 01:01 PM

Diary of a Future Former Fatty 5

By Linda Misleh Wagner, Future Former Fatty

Dear Diary of a Future Former Fatty,

Four pounds off this morning! I am so happy. I feel so motivated!

I get busy making my breakfast and my lunch for work. I was up at three a.m. I had time to clean chicken thighs and drumsticks and bake them.

I prepared a salad, sliced up a red bell pepper and put the pepper strips into a sandwich bag. I cut up a nectarine and a plum and put it into a Tupperware container. A thigh and drumstick deboned went into another Tupperware. I fill the coral denture case I brought home from my office with my daily vitamins.

Somehow, I feel lighter and less bloated. I quietly say a prayer, “God, please give me the strength to stick to my plan.” Suddenly Nadia’s face pops into my mind. That was all I needed to remind me of my mission.

My day at the office was the usual, super busy, too much I want to accomplish, and fun. One of our patients brought four boxes of Sees chocolates. Everyone else has pretty much demolished the first box opened. I didn’t have a single one. I am okay.

I was so exhausted when I got home from work. I look forward to the days when Bob is down here permanently. This getting up at one thirty in the morning always seems to catch up to me the day after.

I eat two pieces of chicken. My mind starts debating as to whether I should get to work on the website content or simply go to bed and get the sleep my body is craving. I opt for sleep. I am too tired to concentrate. My eyelids are too heavy.

As I lay my head on my pillow, I said the “Lord’s Prayer” and asked God to take care of all those I love and care about. Then I beg Him to give me strength to stick with my diet. I beg Him even more for all those I love so dearly to find forgiveness in their hearts and compassion. I thank Him again for bringing Bob into my life, and I ask Him to help Bob through his transition from work to retirement.

Then as I fall asleep, I see Nadia’s face at the airport gate.

Until we meet again, this is Linda Misleh Wagner, Future Former Fatty.

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